For you, no more waiting for heaven,
And no more praying for peace:
Your fight is over, your work is done,
You have found your eternal release.
I wasn’t ready for you to leave—
But I never would have been,
So I remain here, without you,
In this miserable in-between.
My heart is broken, my words are gone,
I have cried a million tears,
And the hurt cascades inside me
Each time I realise you’re not here.
We made a lifetime of memories,
Full of family, friendship and song,
And I know it was just a rehearsal
For where you are now, all along.
But this feels nothing like heaven:
I so miss your warmth and your smile,
The music you brought to every day,
The way you made each day worthwhile.
I will always love you and miss you,
And life will never be the same,
I will cherish your memory forever
And always smile when I speak your name.
©2020 Joanne Van Leerdam